Day 5: God Changes Us

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Today I watched a “cardboard testimonies” video on YouTube (watch it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mS5KdRa5Akw) and felt your presence so strongly. I was sitting alone in my room watching the video and I just had to lift my hands and praise you. Tears were running down my face I was so moved. [Being away at college for so long (I live in a dorm during the normal school year and now I am currently living in an apartment and doing summer school) I rarely get to go home and attend a real-life service, so I reach out to God in other ways, like writing this blog or letting the Holy Ghost take hold of me over a YouTube video.] But back on topic, this video brought to my eyes Your magnificence; watching how You have touched others makes me think of how You have changed me and it shows we how much You love me. You love me. That in it self shocks me some days! I know I don’t deserve Your love or Your sacrifice on the cross, yet you forgive my faults and give me so much more than I deserve! Thank You! I see that You are slowly changing me to be a better follower of You, and I want You to know that I will step back and let You guide me. I look forward to what You will uncover within me and the powerful things You can do if I just let You reign in me.

Those cardboard testimonies were so moving for me because they show where we were before God, and what we have become through God. That is such a severe and humbling split. We are nothing without God in our lives. Before His salvation, we were hell-bound. Before His unending love, we were continually suffering. Before His redemption, we were meaningless. When watching, I began reflecting on my life in Christ, and wondering what I would have put on my piece of cardboard. There is so much God saved me from that it was extremely hard to narrow it down. I finally settled on this (and I think I will make this an entire post one day): “Lost my father and looked for answers in science… found THE answer in my everlasting Father”.

What would your cardboard testimony be? 

Luke 18:9-14: “And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican. The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.”

Please share what you would have put on your piece of cardboard! 🙂

On a totally unrelated note, my class load is really stressful right now. I had my lab final Thursday and now I have two more finals on Monday (one of my biology finals is worth %50 of my grade! Ah!). Jesus, I ask that you calm my nerves, clear my head, and help me to conquer these exams. In Jesus’ name!

❤ Passionate Pentecostal

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Day 4: An Outspoken Christian

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(Note: This blog was written in my prayer journal before I got the blog, so that is why the count of days may be wrong. Thanks!)

Tonight I have had a mini video marathon after I discovered jezuzfreek777 on YouTube. (http://www.youtube.com/user/jezuzfreek777). He posts videos about Christian topics and has a straight forward attitude. A lot of the comments he gets are hateful but he never lets it stop him. I think his videos will hopefully bless my life in You.

Many of his videos touched me but one in particular has, and it has revealed to me that I need to be a more outspoken Christian. I need to tell people “may God bless you” or “I will pray for you” and mean it! I need people to see the evidence of the value I place on You in my life God. Help me to be more outspoken and represent Your kingdom in a positive and loving way!! Previously, I thought I should keep religion separate from my college life (because I go to a very liberal university where the majority of the people argue against religion) but in reality I am just scared of the reactions I might get. Will they question me and will I fail at answering? Will they degrade my beliefs? Will they gang up on me and rip me to shreds with words? But those are just excuses I am using and they are not acceptable! If I trust You, You will guide my words and actions to reach out to others. If I do get persecuted then it is a sacrifice I am willing to make and it will help me to grow spiritually.  You walk with me Lord and I need to lean on You.

1 Peter 3:15-17 – “But sanctify the Lord God in your hears; and be ready always to give an answer to everyman that asketh you a reason of hte hope that is in you with meekness and fear: having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ. For it is better, if the will of God be so, that ye suffer for well being, than for evil doing”

❤ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 3: Being Different

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(Note: This blog was written in my prayer journal before I got the blog, so that is why the count of days may be wrong. Thanks!)

Well after a day by the pool with my best friend and getting a horrible sunburn, I am going to jump right in. This devotional comes from kendrathaler-hair.blogspot.com. She’s Apostolic and her story about how our dress makes us feel isolated and different struck home with me. She turned my mindset around when she talked about how she was walking through her college campus and it broke her heart to see no other girls like her (Kendra, I can relate so much!! I never see any other “skirt girls” on my university campus either!). I however, never really thought about how sad I should be for these girls. I focus on how much I stand out and look different but I never thought about those girls who will probably never know the real truth of God! I feel so badly for those girls who won’t know You and I wish I was brave and strong enough to reach out to them. Also, Kendra talked of how we should thank God that we do not blend in because we get to be a witness for God! Our dress and actions should never make me ashamed because I am made in Your likeness and image. By acting a certain way and showing respect for our bodies we sending a signal out to others that tells people that we are Yours, and that is something to praise!

~Kendra chose 2 Corithians 4:3-7 for the Bible verses, here are some snippets: “For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord, and ourselves your servants for Jesus’ sake.” “But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.”

Lord, help me to represent You proudly and without shame. Help me to be brave enough to reach out with Your word to others. Let me be content to stand out for You and not succumb to worldly things that tempt me.

❤ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 2: Give Thanks

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(Note: This blog was written in my prayer journal before I got the blog, so that is why the count of days may be wrong. Thanks!)

Well God, I just want to say THANK YOU. Mama does not have cancer (for blog readers, my mom struggled with health issues for four months and doctors told her they were almost absolutely positive it was cancer. Let’s just say I have prayed constantly over these four months and so have my loving church family. After three separate biopsies of the tumor not one cancer cell was ever found! They have decided it is severe pancreatitis.) I fully believe it was Your healing power! Thanks for hearing me and releasing Mama from that stress. Your will be done on our lives, because I trust You and know You do not forsake me. I pray that I follow You for the rest of my life.

~Today’s Bible verses come from Yahoo answers and I know You were guiding my hand there because they are so relevant to my life.

It is Psalms 103: “Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits. Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s…”

It continues even more and I really recommend you read it because it is beautiful. It is so comforting…

Please God help me to live a life that pleases You, that is what I strive for. I love You. I trust Your timing and Your divine will so I put the problems I have into Your hands. Help me to be content in the life you have for me.

❤ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 1: Be a Dedicated Runner

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(Note: This blog was written in my prayer journal before I got the blog, so that is why the count of days may be wrong. Thanks!)

And so begins my devotional blog, or prayer blog, or just my “desperate need to reach out, feel God, and share with others” blog. I was listening to Dara McLean’s song “So Good to Me” and the lyrics “His eye is on the sparrow, He’s even living in the little things” made me feel a crazy urge of try this. Is it You God urging me toward this? I hope so. All I know is I feel so isolated from You while I am away at college and I hate it. I need to work harder at my connection to You. I waste so much time everyday and I never try to swim out of this current that is drowning me. Wow, Pandora radio is really on track today, every song has correlated to the sentences I wrote (Francesca Battistelli”s “Constant,” Remedy Drive’s “Heartbeat,” and now Kerrie Roberts’ “No Matter What”). Okay, I hear you God. Thanks. No matter what, I’m gonna love you and trust you.

I really want to read a passage of the Bible and at least write one sentence about it every day. So God, here is my hope that this happens. “Still the fire burns, lighting up the room. I know You’re here with me, You wrap me in Your arms, like only You can do. I know You’re all I need. With You, I’ll always be home…” (Dara McLean, “Home”)

Today I took this from the Apostolic Lady’s Devotional on Facebook, which has a short story about how Christian life is a race, and a successful runner is a dedicated runner. So true.

Hebrews 12:1  “Let us lay aside very weight, and the sin which doth easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us.”

I don’t want to be a fake Christian, I want to live for you. God give me strength.

❤ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 0: Why I Started This Blog

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Hi and welcome! I am a girl who loves God and wants to share her life as an Apostolic (aka Pentecostal) Christian!

~Why I decided to make this blog:

When I first starting going to my Apostolic church, I would spent hours, (literally!), googling about this denomination. I was yearning for more information because I knew and felt in my heart that this was something special. I was quickly shocked at the google results I got! The majority of the websites were defaming Pentecostalism and calling it a cult. What some sites were saying were just horrible and untrue. It broke my heart to read those things and it always sat in the back of my mind. Now that I am more secure in my beliefs and strongly rooted in God, I knew I had to try to make a difference for other questioning souls searching for truth. I was surfing the internet one night when it suddenly hit me: start a blog with your prayer journal! Not only will you get to express your deepest thoughts to God, but maybe it will be a visible testimony to anyone else searching the web someday looking for the real story behind this interesting and, from an outsider’s perspective, crazy religion. Thus, PassionatePentecostal was made. ❤

~What I believe:

  • I am a “Oneness Pentecostal” in that I believe there is only ONE God who is the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. I am NOT Trinitarian. (I know this to be true for many reasons, and if you want more detail ask in a comment and I will make an entire blog post out of it. Maybe I will make one in the future anyway on each one of these topics.)
  • The Bible is the word of God and there is no salvation outside of its pages.
  • To be saved you must repent of your sins, be baptized in water in the name of Jesus Christ, and receive the baptism of the Holy Ghost evidenced through speaking in tongues. (Acts 2:38)
  • Yes, I am a “jean skirt girl!” I practice holiness standards. (Deuteronomy 22:5) (I only wear skirts when in public or around males, I do not wear makeup, jewelry, or immodest clothing. I do not drink, smoke, or otherwise harm my body. I do not go to dances, wear colorful nail polishes, go to the movies, or speak foul language. Trust me, even though it sounds like a lot of “rules” (even though these are not needed for salvation and is based on personal conviction), I love upholding holiness!)
  • I believe in laying on of hands for divine healing. (James 5:14-16)
  • I believe that Jesus will return at any day in the resurrection to take His church. I want to be ready for that!

~Brief info about me:

I have an amazing Pastor and church family.

One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 84.

I converted to Pentecostalism after my freshman year of college and I am now a senior.

When I am home from school I help teach my church’s Sunday School for ages 4 years old to 4th grade, and I love them so much!

My favorite color is pink and I am addicted to reading!

~Please leave comments or questions and I will try to get back to you!

Have a blessed day! ❤