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I’m Still Alive and Worshipping Jesus!

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Hi y’all!

Yes, I am alive and still on fire for God! My God’s not dead and neither am I! ūüôā

Basically, some people have posted comments on here recently, and when you do they go to my email¬† for approval and that is what reminded me about¬†this old blog I used to have. I know my last post was one saying that I will be posting more things (which never happened and I am truly sorry for that! Oh life, it interferes with everything!). I’m definitely¬†NOT getting on here to make any promises, like “I will post every day/week/month/etc!” because I really have no idea what my plans are for this blog and I’m not going to promise something I already know I can’t fulfill.

I’m going to try to post whenever I have a message that Jesus leads me to write down. I think that is a good goal right? ūüôā

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To summarize what my life has been like since the last post:

– I never backslid or anything like that, don’t worry! I actually became even MORE involved with church. I am¬†one of the three¬†people who run PA/Sound at my church, I’ve taught some semesters of my church’s Sunday School, and I’m still singing (terribly!) in the choir.¬†I have also been helping my church’s national organization completely¬†reestablish a subdivision of one of their ministries, completely revamping it to reach out to over 250+ souls in need of the word of God.

– I’ve drawn closer to God than ever before in my walk, and I definitely feel blessed and highly favored. You know when you start doing something great and suddenly you just want to do it 24/7; you just want to get better and invest more of your time in it? That is how I am now. I’ve been really busy doing these things for God and the church, and yet all I keep thinking is: I NEED to do MORE. I WANT MORE, I’m NOT WORTHY of His mercy and I’m DESPERATE to do¬†MORE of His will and His work! That may not make sense to many of you, but I will never be worthy of all that He has given me and I’m just pressed to find more ways to show Jesus that I appreciate Him and need Him. (I’m currently toying with the idea of going on a mission overseas…)

– I also have a full-time job that I’m loving! I’m actually jotting this down during my lunch break. It’s sucking up a lot of my time¬†because my commute is about an hour and a half, but it’s providing a paycheck!

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Sometimes I text my close friends little thoughts that come into my mind randomly. In the past couple of days one of my friends suggested I start a blog, and she was the first person I know in real life who I told about this blog. She has urged me again today to revamp it and post on it more, so this is partly because of her! Love you girl! (She still hasn’t discovered the blog though because it is anonymous and I’m not telling!¬†Haha!)

I just wanted to say that I appreciate each and every one of you reading, and I hope you know that more than anything, God loves you. If you don’t go to a Pentecostal/Apostolic church, please find one in your area and just try it out once, your life may never be the same.

‚̧ Passionate Pentecostal

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Day Something or Other! AKA: I Am Coming Back!

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I know, I know. “You’ve been gone for so long,” “I thought you were never returning,” “she’s abandoned church or something!” No, no, no! I am still living the Pentecostal/Apostolic life and loving it, I am still in school (graduating in May!!! Yay!), and I really haven’t abandoned ya’ll, I promise.¬†

This is just a very brief post to let the world know that I will be returning to writing on Passionate Pentecostal, probably not daily, but definitely weekly! With my final semester of college underway I think I will be able to handle at least a weekly post on here reflecting on life as an Apostolic girl. I hope it blesses you in some way, and always feel free to comment, rather it is challenging or encouraging me I always enjoy them. 

‚̧ Passionate Pentecostal¬†

Day 9: Apostolic Beliefs: Holiness Standards (For Dress)

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I love this topic! In case you have not read the title yet, we will be covering the holiness standards for what we Pentecostals wear. (Tomorrow I want to talk about our hair and our holiness standards for our actions because yet again I went on in this post for longer than I thought and I was not able to talk about hair!)

You may have noticed that us Apostolic/Pentecostal girls, and yes even the boys, tend to dress a certain trademark way. I want to lay out the Biblical reasonings for this way of clothing our bodies. ūüôā

Note: We DO NOT HAVE TO DO THESE to be part of the church! It is our personal convictions and we have found them within the Bible to be true and we want to follow the Word’s teachings! They are not required for salvation, only those actions mentioned in Acts 2:38 are. We are NOT a cult, we are allowed decisions and free thought! ūüôā

Now, a couple of the previous posts in this series (about Oneness and the way to salvation) are strictly set for the majority of Apostolics, but some of the upcoming posts (about hair and holiness standards) really differ with the beliefs of each church’s pastor¬†and that person’s personal convictions. So I want to stress right now, what I am about to say may not be the exact same guidelines that your female Apostolic friend down the street follows. We may even be in the same church organization and differ widely in these standards.

For example, here’s a little story to show my point! A couple of years ago myself and the majority of my church’s youth group went to our organization’s National Youth Convention (where all of the organization’s youth from across the United States get together for about a week and hold church services and fellowship). My church is kind of known for having slightly stricter standards than the majority of the others. This is because it is what our Pastor believes, through researching the Bible and letting God lead him, and so throughout the year he feels it is his duty to teach us what he believes. Therefore, we learn why the Bible says that us ladies should not wear pants, show cleavage, wear makeup or jewelry, etc as listed below. However, other pastors at other churches do not feel the same convictions on the standards of holiness and will not teach them to their individual congregations as our church does. ¬†(This is of course only on issues that are not directly related to salvation, we all abide by Acts 2:38 for example.) So when we were at the National Youth Convention all of the churches across the country were there and after an emotional service with many tears shed, it became quite obvious what churches do not teach against makeup when my church’s group of girls saw another group with mascara and eyeliner smeared faces. Immediately one of our newly converted ladies turned to us girls, who were her friends and the same age as her, and gave us a confused look. Later in the hotel room the tight-knit group of the four of ¬†us had to sit down with her and explain that their pastor did not preach against it and that those girls were not purposefully disobeying the standards of holiness. Long story short, standards differ!

Check out this cool YouTube clip by Tiffany Hubba about Apostolic Holiness!  http://youtu.be/hpKCzvNQYxM

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Here are the standards I follow and when applicable I will list what my church does and then variations that may be encountered:

~Ladies wear skirts that end below the knee in public and men wear pants that cover their legs in public. (Skirt length differs. My church says it only has to be below the knee, but some churches require it to be floor length.)

~In public, ladies do not wear shirts that show cleavage or stomach, and both men and women wear some form of sleeves. (The sleeves issue is widely different across all churches. Mine personally just asks for a sleeve that covers the underarm and is not a cap sleeve. I have seen a range from any type of sleeve, to a sleeve that must reach down to their wrists. Again, it depends on the pastor.)

~Both men and women do not wear unnecessary jewelry or any piercings. (There is varying strictness on jewelry, my church allows one ring on each hand and watches because they have a function. Other churches do not even allow wedding rings! In general though, no necklaces or bracelets, etc. Piercings do not vary however.)

~Ladies do not wear makeup. (As my anecdote showed, this varies. My church is okay with clear lipglosses and a small bit of powder to cover blemishes if needed but it should not be overly applied. Others allow light makeup but no heavy cosmetics.)

~Ladies do not wear colorful nail polishes. (Some allow a french manicure, aka white tips. My church does, although many within my church have personal convictions that feel that only clear polish should be allowed.)

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Now for Biblical and just plain life reasonings!

Deut 22:5 – “The woman shall not wear that which pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man put on a woman’s garment: for all that do so are abomination unto the Lord thy God.” ~Hence why we ladies wear skirts and men wear pants.

1 Peter 3:3 – “Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel” ~This explains our lack of jewelry.

1 Tim 2:9-10 – “In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array; but (which becometh women professing godliness) with good works.” ~ We should be modest, and another reference to not wear jewelry.

In Biblical times Jewish men and women who were slaves were forced to wear earrings in their ears to show to the world that they were property!¬†Egyptians wore makeup, and every woman mentioned in the Bible who “paints their face” aka wears makeup was labelled a harlot or, excuse my lewd term, a whore (ex, Jezebel). Up until relatively recently, only prostitutes wore makeup.

My pastor has also taught a couple of sermons about how when Adam and Eve were evicted from the Garden of Eden God made them clothing from animal fur. (Gen 3:21 – “Unto Adam also and to his wife did the Lord God make coats of skins, and clothed them.”)¬†This was symbolic for many things, but also, the original term for “coat” in Hebrew or Greek meant an outfit that covered from the elbows to the knees, hence our desire to cover a portion of our arms and wear skirts below our knees.

One of the main reasons for these guidelines are that we should strive to be modest! We should not wear clothes that will distract those of the opposite sex from their walk with God. I would not want to be the reason one of my brothers in Christ struggled or fell! I would feel horrible that I could have possibly prevented it! Also, as a woman I do not want to be looked at in a vulgar way; it does not make me feel sexy, instead it is extremely uncomfortable for me!

In the end, it mainly comes down to the fact that God made us the way we are, and if we were to try and alter God’s creation, it is almost like saying “sorry God, You didn’t do a good enough job, I know better than you what I should look like so I am going to change the beauty that you have created.”

By following my personal convictions I am proudly saying “God, You made me beautiful and I am not ashamed to live the way you want me to as a virtuous woman!

I do this out of love and respect for God, not because I think it is necessary to get to heaven. This is one of my forms of submission to God. I have come to find that these things help to remind me throughout the day that I am God’s and it keeps me in a God-centered life.

God made us a “a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people” (1 Peter 2:9) and we should embrace that. God did not want us to be part of the world but rather to be separate from the world because in the end it is not our home but just a temporary stop! We should not want to fit in with this world that is full of hate, hurt, crime, adultery, pain, and so much sin. Who would want to be¬†affiliated¬†with that when you could be recognized as a child of God?

I hope this helps you understand the Apostolics you know a little bit better. I promise we are not some crazies in a cult! ūüėČ

‚̧ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 6: Pressing the Pause Button

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In this world it is a constant go here, go there, oh I need to run this errand, and of course my Facebook absolutely MUST be attended to. Sometimes we get so “busy” that we push You aside. With my weekend spent frantically studying, (and yes, freaking out did occur), I was worried this would be that type of situation for me God. Then, like always, you made a way and calmed my fears. You are so reliable God.

Here was the scenario yesterday: I was walking from my apartment to campus carrying three bags and a giant tripod (Don’t ask. Okay, okay, I have a drama class that I had to record a monologue for!). Anyway, I had to turn in the video equipment by a certain time or get a $30 fine per hour, which I definitely can’t afford. I was doing the typical head down, plodding along when I glanced up because a jogger needed to pass me. You used that upward glance to reach me. You use so many mundane things to touch our lives; how many of them have I missed? When I glanced up I saw gorgeous green trees, sniffed the smell of gardenias, and saw the bright blue sky spread out above me. Yet again, You hit me with a revelation. I could have been using that long, tedious, boring walk to talk to You! Instead of worrying about stuff that couldn’t be dealt with anyway while walking, I could be enjoying the beauty you put on this earth and getting an intimate moment with You.

Well I heard Your call, so for the rest of my walk I prayed to You and gave thanks. It was quite a long walk uphill in midday so I was just tired and gross, but I turned that into praise to You in that moment. Thank you God for giving me healthy legs to make it up that hill, thank You for no rain, thank You for giving me lungs to gulp down breath, thank You for the air conditioning I was looking forward to. So many seemingly tiny things to us, but to someone across the world or down the street, those were things worthy of thanksgiving! I overlook so much that You give me and I am so ungrateful some days. I pray that You continue to raise my eyes from the ground and show me Your glory. 

We should take advantage of those random moments in our lives when we think we are swamped but there are really minutes of peace. Really there is always time for Jesus. Stop surfing Facebook for just a teeny tiny five minutes and thank God for the luxury of internet to be able to connect to all of your friends. Turn off your television and read a single chapter in the Bible, they are not long! How much more would our lives be blessed if we reached out to Him and showed Him a portion of the love He deserves? 

1 John 5:14-15- “And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us: and if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.”

Now I am off to pull basically an all-nighter for this biology exam tomorrow morning that is worth %50 of my grade! Please pray I do well, I know I will be! ūüôā

‚̧ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 1: Be a Dedicated Runner

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(Note: This blog was written in my prayer journal before I got the blog, so that is why the count of days may be wrong. Thanks!)

And so begins my devotional blog, or prayer blog, or just my “desperate need to reach out, feel God, and share with others” blog. I was listening to Dara McLean’s song “So Good to Me” and the lyrics “His eye is on the sparrow, He’s even living in the little things” made me feel a crazy urge of try this. Is it You God urging me toward this? I hope so. All I know is I feel so isolated from You while I am away at college and I hate it. I need to work harder at my connection to You. I waste so much time everyday and I never try to swim out of this current that is drowning me. Wow, Pandora radio is really on track today, every song has correlated to the sentences I wrote (Francesca Battistelli”s “Constant,” Remedy Drive’s “Heartbeat,” and now Kerrie Roberts’ “No Matter What”). Okay, I hear you God. Thanks. No matter what, I’m gonna love you and trust you.

I really want to read a passage of the Bible and at least write one sentence about it every day. So God, here is my hope that this happens. “Still the fire burns, lighting up the room. I know You’re here with me, You wrap me in Your arms, like only You can do. I know You’re all I need. With You, I’ll always be home…” (Dara McLean, “Home”)

Today I took this from the Apostolic Lady’s Devotional on Facebook, which has a short story about how Christian life is a race, and a successful runner is a dedicated runner. So true.

Hebrews 12:1 ¬†“Let us lay aside very weight, and the sin which doth easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us.”

I don’t want to be a fake Christian, I want to live for you. God give me strength.

‚̧ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 0: Why I Started This Blog

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Hi and welcome! I am a girl who loves God and wants to share her life as an Apostolic (aka Pentecostal) Christian!

~Why I decided to make this blog:

When I first starting going to my Apostolic church, I would spent hours, (literally!), googling about this denomination. I was yearning for more information because I knew and felt in my heart that this was something special. I was quickly shocked at the google results I got! The majority of the websites were defaming Pentecostalism and calling it a cult. What some sites were saying were just horrible and untrue. It broke my heart to read those things and it always sat in the back of my mind. Now that I am more secure in my beliefs and strongly rooted in God, I knew I had to try to make a difference for other questioning souls searching for truth. I was surfing the internet one night when it suddenly hit me: start a blog with your prayer journal! Not only will you get to express your deepest thoughts to God, but maybe it will be a visible testimony to anyone else searching the web someday looking for the real story behind this interesting and, from an outsider‚Äôs perspective, crazy religion. Thus, PassionatePentecostal was made. ‚̧

~What I believe:

  • I am a “Oneness Pentecostal” in that I believe there is only ONE God who is the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. I am NOT Trinitarian. (I know this to be true for many reasons, and if you want more detail ask in a comment and I will make an entire blog post out of it. Maybe I will make one in the future anyway on each one of these topics.)
  • The Bible is the word of God and there is no salvation outside of its pages.
  • To be saved you must repent of your sins, be baptized in water in the name of Jesus Christ, and¬†receive¬†the baptism of the Holy Ghost evidenced through speaking in tongues. (Acts 2:38)
  • Yes, I am a “jean skirt girl!” I practice holiness standards. (Deuteronomy 22:5) (I only wear skirts when in public or around males, I do not wear makeup, jewelry, or immodest clothing. I do not drink, smoke, or otherwise harm my body. I do not go to dances, wear colorful nail polishes, go to the movies, or speak foul language. Trust me, even though it sounds like a lot of “rules” (even though these are not needed for salvation and is based on personal conviction), I love upholding holiness!)
  • I believe in laying on of hands for divine healing. (James 5:14-16)
  • I believe that Jesus will return at any day in the resurrection to take His church. I want to be ready for that!

~Brief info about me:

I have an amazing Pastor and church family.

One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 84.

I converted to Pentecostalism after my freshman year of college and I am now a senior.

When I am home from school I help teach my church’s Sunday School for ages 4 years old to 4th grade, and I love them so much!

My favorite color is pink and I am addicted to reading!

~Please leave comments or questions and I will try to get back to you!

Have a blessed day! ‚̧