I’m Still Alive and Worshipping Jesus!

Hi y’all!

Yes, I am alive and still on fire for God! My God’s not dead and neither am I! 🙂

Basically, some people have posted comments on here recently, and when you do they go to my email  for approval and that is what reminded me about this old blog I used to have. I know my last post was one saying that I will be posting more things (which never happened and I am truly sorry for that! Oh life, it interferes with everything!). I’m definitely NOT getting on here to make any promises, like “I will post every day/week/month/etc!” because I really have no idea what my plans are for this blog and I’m not going to promise something I already know I can’t fulfill.

I’m going to try to post whenever I have a message that Jesus leads me to write down. I think that is a good goal right? 🙂

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To summarize what my life has been like since the last post:

– I never backslid or anything like that, don’t worry! I actually became even MORE involved with church. I am one of the three people who run PA/Sound at my church, I’ve taught some semesters of my church’s Sunday School, and I’m still singing (terribly!) in the choir. I have also been helping my church’s national organization completely reestablish a subdivision of one of their ministries, completely revamping it to reach out to over 250+ souls in need of the word of God.

– I’ve drawn closer to God than ever before in my walk, and I definitely feel blessed and highly favored. You know when you start doing something great and suddenly you just want to do it 24/7; you just want to get better and invest more of your time in it? That is how I am now. I’ve been really busy doing these things for God and the church, and yet all I keep thinking is: I NEED to do MORE. I WANT MORE, I’m NOT WORTHY of His mercy and I’m DESPERATE to do MORE of His will and His work! That may not make sense to many of you, but I will never be worthy of all that He has given me and I’m just pressed to find more ways to show Jesus that I appreciate Him and need Him. (I’m currently toying with the idea of going on a mission overseas…)

– I also have a full-time job that I’m loving! I’m actually jotting this down during my lunch break. It’s sucking up a lot of my time because my commute is about an hour and a half, but it’s providing a paycheck!

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Sometimes I text my close friends little thoughts that come into my mind randomly. In the past couple of days one of my friends suggested I start a blog, and she was the first person I know in real life who I told about this blog. She has urged me again today to revamp it and post on it more, so this is partly because of her! Love you girl! (She still hasn’t discovered the blog though because it is anonymous and I’m not telling! Haha!)

I just wanted to say that I appreciate each and every one of you reading, and I hope you know that more than anything, God loves you. If you don’t go to a Pentecostal/Apostolic church, please find one in your area and just try it out once, your life may never be the same.

❤ Passionate Pentecostal

Day 5: God Changes Us

Today I watched a “cardboard testimonies” video on YouTube (watch it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mS5KdRa5Akw) and felt your presence so strongly. I was sitting alone in my room watching the video and I just had to lift my hands and praise you. Tears were running down my face I was so moved. [Being away at college for so long (I live in a dorm during the normal school year and now I am currently living in an apartment and doing summer school) I rarely get to go home and attend a real-life service, so I reach out to God in other ways, like writing this blog or letting the Holy Ghost take hold of me over a YouTube video.] But back on topic, this video brought to my eyes Your magnificence; watching how You have touched others makes me think of how You have changed me and it shows we how much You love me. You love me. That in it self shocks me some days! I know I don’t deserve Your love or Your sacrifice on the cross, yet you forgive my faults and give me so much more than I deserve! Thank You! I see that You are slowly changing me to be a better follower of You, and I want You to know that I will step back and let You guide me. I look forward to what You will uncover within me and the powerful things You can do if I just let You reign in me.

Those cardboard testimonies were so moving for me because they show where we were before God, and what we have become through God. That is such a severe and humbling split. We are nothing without God in our lives. Before His salvation, we were hell-bound. Before His unending love, we were continually suffering. Before His redemption, we were meaningless. When watching, I began reflecting on my life in Christ, and wondering what I would have put on my piece of cardboard. There is so much God saved me from that it was extremely hard to narrow it down. I finally settled on this (and I think I will make this an entire post one day): “Lost my father and looked for answers in science… found THE answer in my everlasting Father”.

What would your cardboard testimony be? 

Luke 18:9-14: “And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican. The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.”

Please share what you would have put on your piece of cardboard! 🙂

On a totally unrelated note, my class load is really stressful right now. I had my lab final Thursday and now I have two more finals on Monday (one of my biology finals is worth %50 of my grade! Ah!). Jesus, I ask that you calm my nerves, clear my head, and help me to conquer these exams. In Jesus’ name!

❤ Passionate Pentecostal